enough. this word has been bouncing around in my head over the last week as i've pondered what it means to have enough and specifically, for God and my relationship with Him to be enough. as i meditated and processed and thought through the concept of God being enough in my life, i decided to go to the dictionary to ensure that i was working with a correct perspective on the word, "enough." merriam-webster defines enough as, "occurring in such quantity, quality, or scope as to fully meet demands, needs, or expectations." wow. i'll be honest that in light of all the Lord seems to be teaching me that definition spoke volumes to my heart.
first, i'll give you a little history behind what the Lord seems to be doing in my heart as of late. a good friend and i are walking through beth moore's breaking free bible study and it has been an incredible and life changing study over the last few months. i've been challenged to really examine my life and allow the Lord to reveal areas of bondage or captivity and then do the work necessary to allow Him to bring freedom in those areas. in one of the most recent dvd sessions beth talked about the concept of "enough" and what our lives look like when Jesus isn't "our enough." she used examples of all the things that can fill our lives and take the place that is specifically reserved for Him. here's the thing...i don't think most people, myself included, intentionally fill our lives with other things (and they're usually not what we would label bad things) which end up excluding the Savior but it does happen. why? why does it happen? do we not trust Him to be enough? what does it look like when we allow Jesus to be "our enough?" these are the questions that have been rolling around in my head and my heart for the last week.
i'm pretty sure that if you ask me if i trust that Jesus is enough for me i would answering with a resounding, "absolutely!" and i do trust Him. He has proven Himself faithful, loving, and trustworthy so many times in my life over and over again. i also believe, though, that this is a process and sometimes i don't always get it the first time (or the second, or the third, or the fourth). think about the israelites for a minute...God's chosen people. they had seen such incredible wonders and experienced God's provision and His work in their lives time after time after time and then here they are in jeremiah 2:12-14. "be appalled at this, o heavens, and shudder with great horror," declares the LORD. "my people have committed two sins: they have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water. is israel a servant, a slave by birth? why then has he become plunder?” yikes. not only did they abandon (or forsake) God...the spring of living water, they decided to create their own source (that was broken) to try to fulfill their thirst or the need they had for God. the result of their sin and attempt to live from these broken cisterns? slavery, bondage, captivity.
i'm done with broken cisterns... first of all, it's sinful, second, they don't hold water and third, they can't fulfill the thirst and desire i have for Jesus to be enough in my life. i've asked the Lord this week to uncover any cisterns i've dug on my own so they can be destroyed. i don't want to walk around in the bondage of trying to fill places the Lord alone can fill. if the Lord has taught me anything over the last few months, i have learned that He is enough. period.
i'm so thankful that the Lord desires to be our "enough" and i'm excited about the future. He alone is capable of meeting my needs and my expectations...no one else. i can't wait to see what the Lord will do in our lives because above all else, He is what we want and desire. He is everything. He is enough so whatever He asks us to do, wherever He asks us to go...we're in.